hallelujah! She's coming home!!!! My cousin who is currently stationed in Japan has been reassigned. She's coming home in February--new location: San Diego. I'm thinkin big fat cuzzy weekend get together! =) I'm so excited! Now I'm just praying that she'll be safe until February, she's still on active duty on board the USS Wilbur. ::sigh:: Four more months, four more months.

Well, obviously my laser went well on Tuesday. Well, according to my Dr. anyway. Dialated my own eyes so I wouldn't have to wait at his office [one of the benefits of having an optometrist for a father, drugs on hand! Hahahahaha!] to get dialated. The actual laser was only about 5 minutes. I was fully awake, just some drops so I wouldnt feel anything. The bad part of the procedure was the bright lights and the slight pressure I could feel every time he zapped. But other than that it didn't hurt. It hurt afterwards tho. Well, not really hurt, it was just sore and since I was dialated, I couldn't see very well. He said I could drive and everything, but I just had to wait awhile. So I drove to school that afternoon. It was a little weird, I prolly sholdn't have, but I'm still in one piece as is my car ;) My eye is still dialated, Dad said he didn't know how strong the drugs should be so he just gave me the strongest one--hence my dialation still in effect. It supposed to wear off in 48 hours. Eesh.

So, yes, everything's ok--for the time being. I don't have to see him till next month. For those of you who've emailed and/or called, I really appreciate it. It means alot to me--seriously, you'll never know how much. So everything's back to normal and I have no limitations this time around. yipppeee!!! No more missing any football games, I can drive, no missing out on the snow season, I can fully rock out to music...life is good again. Thank you Lord! =)

I'm sucha sucker. I really hate reality shows but for some reason, I got sucked into Laguna Beach. I know, I know, it's not even a reality show...I dunno. The funny thing is I hate most of the people on the show. I can't believe how stupid they are. Arghhhh---so how DID I get sucked into it? Beats me.

"It was a beautiful let down when i crashed and burned..." -switchfoot

So I guess I'm crashing and burning again. I have to have laser surgery on my left eye again. Another hole has turned up and while it's not causing the damage that I've had before, it's still somewhat of a problem. So tomorrow morning at 9am, I'm going under the beam. It's going to be a really short procedure and supposed to be painless. But well, I just don't know. The first time I had it done on my right eye, it didn't hurt. When I had it done on my left eye, it hurt so badly I couldn't say anything, I was just shaking and tears where just pouring down. I'm not sure what to expect. I'm not sure if I'm scared yet. I am, but I'm not, so thus the confusion. I am thankful that it's just laser and I don't have to have another operation and be flat on my back again, but at the same time, I'm worried about it. I went to Joyfest on Saturday and Peter from newsboys said something that's been replaying in my head. "Don't think about yesterday, because it's gone. Don't think about today, because, well, it's almost over. And don't think about tomorrow, because God's already there. Don't you know that He has everything already planned out?" I know this to be the truth, I know this and believe this with my whole heart. And I know that I shouldn't be worrying about the tomorrows to come, but at the same time, I am. It's been 3 years since the initial ordeal and I've been healing fine and for this to creep back up, it is somewhat daunting. I keep telling myself not to worry about tomorrow, I keep telling myself there's no reason to feel down or to feel like you should cry - besides, what's the point in crying? It's not going to change anything, but I keep putting myself in check. It's just going to be a simple, easy-peasy procedure tomorrow that will take less than 5 minutes to perform. After which I can rest for a few hours and still be able to go to school. Note to self: keep telling yourself that.

So yes, this past weekend. Had a foundation meeting at the Hsiao's after H2O. Then had a CSI marathon. Well, not really. Thot we would be able to watch all of season one, we barely made it thru the 1st DVD! Went to practice in the morning, then picked up Ange and headed to Great America for Joyfest. 4 bands, 5 hours of rocking out. Casting Pearls, Skillet, Relient K, and Newsboys. Ahhhhhhh, even the weather couldn't hamper the festivites. We didn't get too wet. It was pretty awesome, it rained only inbetween the sets. It was an awesome time of worship. Then to Auntie Lucy's house, b/c I housesat for them.

Sunday, church, lunch w/ Auntie Bobbie, grandparents, family, Auntie Terri, and lil Gracie Lou. Then to Sacto for Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman and Chris Tomlin. Went w/ Mere, Hil, Steve, Sylvia, Mark, Mark's co-worker Ken and his wife [whom I can't remember her name] and Ken's brother, Steve. Great concert.

At first, I was thinking, "Man, overload on the concerts this weekend." But they just helped prepare me for today and tomorrow. So, I'm off to bed and hopefully I'll be able to have a peaceful sleep before the event of the day takes place. ::sigh::

Do not be afraid for I am with you says the Lord. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.