*whew* someone sent this to me...took forever and years to do...but i must be bored...lol


Name: Michelle
Birthdate: january 12, 1981
Current Location: My Room.
Hair Color: natural: dark brown. now, light brownish/purplish/reddish w/ red highlights. it looks better than it sounds, lol
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: cap
Innie or Outtie: Innie
// series two - describe
The shoes you wore today: my doc sandles w/ the hearts in the middle
Your hair: shoulder length. didn't i answer this question already?
Your eyes: Brown
Your weakness: many...art stores where i spend all my money...any store for that fact...guys w/ dimples and bright eyes and smiles, bmws...lol
Your fears: Abandonment.
Your perfect pizza: combo
// series three - what is
Your most overused phrase on aol\aim: LOL
Your thoughts first waking up: i just went to sleep
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes. Then Smile.
Your best physical features: i don't have any
Your usual bedtime: whenever i crash on my bed
Your greatest accomplishment: No freaking idea.
Your best memory: i have lots. the majority are of occassions w/ the cousins, ria, chema, uncle parker, and grandpa woo
// series four - do you
Smoke: No.
Cuss: I try not to.
Sing well: Some people say I do, but I think I suck.
Take a shower everyday: no, just once a week...WHAT DO YOU THINK?
Like high school: hated it. you would too if you went there
Want to get married?: *shrug* i dunno
Type with your fingers on the right keys:yes.
Believe in yourself: kind of
Get motion sickness: Not really.
Think you're attractive: no
Think you're a health freak: depends. sometimes
Get along with your parents: yeah...for the most part
Like thunderstorms: YES! i LUV them!!
Play an instrument: used to
// series five - in the past month, did/have you
Drank alcohol: yeah
Smoked:  does 2nd hand count?
Done a drug: yeah, tylenol w/ codine and vicodin...no, not at the same time
Made Out: No
Go on a date: no
Go to the mall: yeah
Been on stage: yeah
Been dumped: No.
Gone skating: Nope.
Made homemade cookies: ummm...no
Been in love: i don't think so...crushed yes...love, no
Gone skinny dipping: Nope.
Dyed your hair: Nope and it's time!
Stolen anything: Nope.
// series six - have you ever?
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope.
Gotten beaten up: Nope, well not physically, emotionally, yes
Shoplifted: No
If so, did you get caught: N/A
Changed who you were to fit in: No.
// series seven - the future
Age you hope to be married: not thinkin about that
Numbers and Names of Children: i dunno how many. i sorta don't want them but do. i like the names joshua, jordan, morgan, danielle, justin
Describe your Dream Wedding: Have no idea.
What age do you want to die: Whenever God wants me with him.
What do you want to be when you grow up: At this point? a graphic designer, but who knows, it could still change
What country would you most like to visit: Hm... country? Austria
Current Clothes: that i'm wearing right now? my nordstrom night shirt from auntie bobbie
Current Mood: a lil sad, a lil happy, more like *shrug* eh, whatever
Current Taste: in what? clothes? food? guys? music?
Current Hair: Down.
Current Annoyance: ummm...my room, it'd messy and i'm getting frustrated w/ it
Current Smell: cucumber melon...it's plugged in the wall
Current thing you ought to be doing: Sleeping
Current Desktop Picture: collage of friends and family
Current Favorite Groups: all-american rejects, good charlotte, and still nsync
Current DVD In Player: that thing you do
Current Worry: i'm not going to get all this stuff for work done, i'm not gonna be feeling better any time soon cuz the dr's don't know what's wrong with me, we'll never find out who took ria away from us and i'm going to live the rest of my life w/ some resentment built up in me
//other stuff
-What's on your bedside table? Kim Anderson figurines, a few tiffany boxes, candles, and lotion
-What's the geekiest part of your music collection? hmmm...geekiest?? ummm...i dunno. ppl would prolly consider alot of my music geeky  
-What do you eat when you raid the fridge at night? i don't...too lazy and tired to get out of bed and make the trip downstairs
-What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? hmmm...an affair to remember and as much as i hate this movie, a walk to remember.
-If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? I like to think that I'll never have plastic surgery. But, I suppose, if I were to have a gun pointed at my head, telling me to have plastic surgery or I'll die, then I'd probably go with a standard liposuction... although, have you seen those news shows where they talk about the horrors of liposuction?? *shudders* Man... you end up deformed!
-Do you have a completely irrational fear? Abandonment. Something along those lines.
-What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? i think i start babbling and making alot of hand motions...i dunno exactly
-Describe your bed: full size canopy...tommy hilfiger hawaiian sheets and comforter, 4 down pillows, my bunny that i've had for forever...and whatever else...oh, prolly my cell phone too
-Spontaneous or plan? I love being spontaneous. Unfortunately, my life and circumstances surrounding me prevents me from being spontaneous all the time.
-Who should play you in a movie about your life? hahahhaha
-What do you carry with you at all times? at ALL times? eh, it varies...my delica knife, either my tiffany heart necklace or hawaiian "m" barrell..i try to remember my wallet and cell
-How do you drive?=D FAST and in control
-What do you miss most about being little? no worries
-Are you happy with your given name? yes. i used to hate it, but i like it now..."meee-shell, my bell, these are words that go together well..."
-How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for a year? i dunno...enough to make me forget about it...enough to keep me at the mall...or rather, enough to buy me either my m3, motorcycle or truck so i can be on the road
-What color is your bedroom? White
-What was the last song you were listening to? "Crazy Little Thing called Love," Michael Buble
-Have you ever been in a school play? yeah
-Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? not really
-Have you ever done any illegal drugs? Nope.
-Do you think you’re cute? Nopes
-Are you special? i dunno, am I? Depends what you mean by "special"...
-If yes, what makes you special? I don't know what you would consider special...
-If no, then why? lol, I'm going to say I'm special.
-What attracts you to the opposite sex? Eyes, smile, and great personality.
-What do you think makes you appeal to others? i actually appeal to others? ummm...i'm low maintenance?
-Exactly what makes a person attractive? their personality, good hygiene...lol
-Do you feel comfortable in crowds? depends. do i know these ppl? usually i am. if they're a bunch of hostile ppl, then no
-Do you feel comfortable being touched (Hugged etc) by other people? lol, what kind of question is this? hugged by ppl? yes, i like hugs! bear hugs!...well, depends on the person...cuz i have been hugged by ppl who i wish would disappear
-Do you feel comfortable sharing possessions with others? Depends what it is. otherwise, yes
-Do you feel comfortable trusting others? not really. i have trust issues. let's just say i've been burned one too many times
-Who, or what, has been the biggest positive influence on your life? Friends and Family.
-Who, or what, has been the biggest negative influence on your life? I don't know?
-Who has been the greatest support to you? close friends, most of my family
-Who has been a hindrance or annoyance in your life? Me?
-Do you find it easy to admit you're wrong? Generally, unless it's something I really believe in, no matter how wrong I am.
-Do you find it easy to apologize? yeah...some ppl say i apologize TOO MUCH...for nothing...*shrug*
[Recent Things]
-What was the last dream you remember? ria wasn't really dead...just somewhere far far away and she didn't remember me or anyone and didn't want to come back home..wait that's a nitemare. i don't remember my last dream
-What do you think that dream was trying to tell you? hopefully nothing
-What was the last thing you said to someone? "take care of your cell phone" to mommy
-And the purpose for saying it? she left it in the guest bathroom and had 2 messages
-What was the last good deed you did for someone? I dunno...
-What was the last bad turn you did for someone? I don't know...
-When was the last time you smiled? earlier tonite
-Why did you smile? played baseball w/ gregory
-Who was the last friend you spoke to? phone? umm...hil. IM, ben
-What do you think of that friend? i hate 'em both. lol, nah, i luv 'em
-How do you feel now? eh, alrighty i guess...
[Reactions]
How do you react to:
-A couple being affectionate together: depends on how "affectionate." most of the time, i feel like yelling GO GET A ROOM!
-A homosexual couple being affectionate together: same as above
-A person in tears before you: generally, it makes me sad and i hug 'em. if they're crying for a dumb reason, like they brot it upon themselves, or if it's a lil kid who's just trying to get attention, i get annoyed and ignore them
-Someone being bullied/attacked: i hate that. if it's a friend, i try to stick up for them. but then, if they brot it upon themselves, then they're the idiot
-A tragedy or accident in the News: Eyes water a little...
-Some scandal on someone famous/important in the News: nothing new. who friggin cares?!
-Charity advertisements (TV or otherwise): some i feel guilty about not being able to give, some, *shrug* whatever
-Praise from friends/loved ones: usually say the opposite of what they're saying.
-Insults from friends/loved ones: sometimes, i take it kinda hard, other times, i could really care less
-Praise from strangers: "Um, thank you. Who are you again?"
-Insults from strangers: "And you're telling me this because...?"
[Opportunity]
If the opportunity came, would you sooner:
-Travel to see a long lost old best friend, or a loved one: Hmm... probably a loved one. only cuz if that "best" friend was long and lost, it'd be too weird...too much time has passed and we've both changed, so it'll prolly be awkward
-Go out partying all night or stay in at home: depends where i'm going to go partying at and with whom
-Move to live in a new city, or live where you were raised: Move to a new city. I know this place entirely too well.
-Date a celebrity, or stick with what you know: Depends what celebrity... otherwise, stick with what I know.
-Start a career in music or within acting: Music.
-Become rich or famous:depends on how i'm gonna be famous tho...
-Live within a large house or small apartment: why can't i have both? if i'm rich enough, i'll have a large house AND small apartmentS everywhere
-Marry young and live happily ever after, or have multiple fun flings forever: can i just say happily ever after since i'm not exactly young anymore? hahahha
-Become known for famous or infamous deeds: boht
[Song Section]
Name a song that reminds you of :
-Friendship: "Friends" Michael W. Smith "Circle of Friends" Point of Grace
-Happiness: "Don't Worry...Be Happy"
-Love: "It's Your Love" Tim McGraw, Faith Hill
-Excitement: I don't really know...
-Anger: "Break Stuff" Limp Bizkit
-Hate: "My Bloody Valentine" Good Charlotte
-Revenge: hmmm...
-Worry/Anxiety: "Why Worry" All-American Rejects
-Depression: i dunno
-Death: "I Long for the Day" or "The Day THat I Die" Good Charlotte
-Life: ummm...
And a song that:
-Cheers you up: any nsync, superchic[k], michael buble, or smitty song
-Makes you depressed: songs that remind me of ria, chema, or uncle parker
-You dance to: anything that's "dance-able", duh
-Reminds you of a loved one: "One Sweet Day" "God Must Have Spent..." "I Long for the Day" and any BSB songs
-Reminds you of yourself: i dunno
[The Future]
-What are you going to do after this?go to sleep i guess
-What are you going to do tomorrow? work then dr sue appointment, then tamaron's graduation
-What are your plans for the next five years? I'd like to think I'll finish school, get a job I love...
-What do you honestly think will happen in another five years? Still in school. No boyfriend. Working and being a bum who wants to go to tahoe and hawaii all time and draw or paint
-Have you changed within the past five years? oh yeah
-Do you think you'll change within another five years? yeah, I hope it'll be for the better though.
-What career did you want as a child? graphic designer
-What career do you want now? still the same. altho, i fantasize about being a musician, chef, editor, downhill racer, and world known artist
-Do you want to live to be 100? only if i'm healthy
-Do you believe in life after death or reincarnation? yeah. i believe in HEAVEN
[Finally]
-What do you want now? to see ria
-How are you going to get/do it? look at pictures
-What question do you wish you were asked?*shrug*
-How would you answer that question? n/a

the past few weeks have been stressful, tiring, annoying, frustrating, sad, fun, and...well, just long. i guess when something bad happens to my health, it's gotta be everything. a few weeks ago, was supposed to go to joe's crab shack w/ youth service team but i couldn't move at all. i was hurting all over and i couldn't eat at all. had to go to emergency cuz the on-call dr wouldn't see me. stayed there for 6 friggin hours to have them tell me that they can't really do anything, so just eat plain rice, nothing else and call your regular dr monday morning. just take tylenol for the pain. geez. and ya know, i still went to work during the week. how dedicated AM i? and i still went to the ria foundation meeting to get stuff ready. by then i was feeling a lil better tho. at least by that day i could walk. so yeah, for a week, lived on plain rice and apple sauce.

2 years. 2 whole years without one of the best people in the world. i can't believe it's been that long. i miss ria so much and sometimes, i still catch myself sayin, "i gotta call ria and tell her about..." weird? *shrug* i dunno. so monday, worked in the morning then ran errands before the candle light vigil. about 45 people came out. thank you everyone for coming!!! it meant alot that you were there =) i thot i'd be ok and not cry, but i cried. then back to the hsiao house to hang out and get some stuff ready for the next day, flier passing. met at cememtery. was supposed to meet at 10 there...first me, then christine, then hil, then byron...waited and waited...and waited....and waited some more. then we started betting on what time the family would get there...hahahahahhaha...i lost. then everyone split up. some went to oakland, jack london square, s.f, san jose, and i went to palo alto/east palo alto w/ theo, tubbs, matt, chris, joey, christine, hil, and byron. the ppl in east palo alto were really nice. most of the corporate businesses said they couldn't post fliers in their store fronts but they posted them in their break rooms. togos/baskin robins said we could even tho we weren't allowed to...that was nice. and many ppl said that they remembered hearing about it...so that was nice. then headed back to the hsiao house to start cooking, but made a stop at in 'n out and albertsons. started cooking and then everyone came over for dinner. it was nice to see so many ppl come and hang out and stuff. i was exhausted tho. so i left around 12. came home and crashed. and i haven't had any nightmares lately about ria, but i had a weird one last nite. i dreamt that i was driving thru the country and then my car got stuck somewhere. i found myself at some college far away; i don't know where, just far away. i walked into this dorm and i see all these pictures of ria, ria w/ ppl, lots of drawings and paintings and a few things that say Maria Ann Hsiao. i'm shocked and then ria walks thru the door. she doesn't know who i am and introduces herself and says that all the pictures are of her and her family and friends, but they're ppl i've never seen before. i started crying and she asked me what was wrong and i tell her that everyone has been missing her and we want her to come home. she looks weired out by what i'm saying and i just run out of the room. i woke up and i actually had tears on my face. it was like a cruel cruel joke...she was really alive and living life somewhere else, but not missing any of us or wanting to come home. so that wasn't the SCARIEST....just the WORST feeling...*sigh*