*YAWWWNNNNN* i stayed up till 3 this morning working on my blk/white --> color photo. set my alarm clock for 7 so i could get up, print & mount. i woke up, printed, but instead of getting ready, i fell back asleep while it printed. i woke up again at 8:30...class is at 9. *sigh* still made it to class around 9:20. barely making it thru the work day tho...


smallville's premiere was pretty interesting. mom & i totally screamed when lex reached for the shiny thing in the stream and the skeleton popped up. and i mean screamed hahahhahahhaha! poor lex...somehow i knew helen had something to do w/ it. i thot clark's dad was gonna die when he went into the cave, like that scientist guy did last season...can't wait for next week's. altho, i prolly won't be able to get out of class as early. i got out this week, cuz i was the only one who did their hw. how ironic, huh? ;)

tonite= csi & without a trace!! =) but i just might fall asleep before it starts...

just cuz life's complicated now...

~Complicated
Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no


today, was sooooo wasted. ok, this morning's class was wasted. tues/thurs, mike and i just sit in class and search www. we find great designers, bad designers, great websites, bad websites. internet is the air we breathe for that class...literally. i got to class about 5 min lates today. mike says, "we have a problem....no internet." "what?! what are we going to do for 3 friggin hours?!?!" we sat there for about 15 min watching our teacher tell everyone lame "designer" suggestions and then moved out to the computer lab cuz the computers were being stupid. stayed for about 2 hours workin on other class projects then went to work. went back to school for class...same-o, same-o. i at least like my tues/thurs evening class.

and that was my day. how uneventful and boring, huh? lol

i talked w/ someone today...and they helped me put my mind at some ease. i just wanted to clear the air b/t us and it was....they mentioned that sometimes, you just have to give up on stuff and focus on yourself and what's best for you. which i can understand, but it seems sort of selfish. i know that i can't be running in 3 million places at once and if i start to feel bad or guilty then i should really think about why i'm doing what i'm doing. so i felt a lil better after our lil chat. i was on the verge of tears, for, i don't know why. during the process of aging, i have become more sentimental...weird and i don't exactly like it.

i'm still unsure of the other 1/2 of my decision i need to make. well, i basically said i decided on it, but the way things look, i'm UNdecided...*sigh* so yeah, prayer needed for michy...along w/ everyone else i know who's going through crap right now--drama, heartache, frustration, etc



woooo! cal won! giants won! stupid saturday classes makin me miss all the good games...

right about now, life sux. so many of my friends are going thru hard times. soooo many. i try to be a friend and be there for them, be a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, a sounding board to vent to, and someone who tries to give sound advice. but whenever i offer my thots, opinions or suggestions, it makes things worse. in the end, it makes them hurt more, which is completely opposite of what i want for them. what i want is to be able to have the power to take away any and all pain, the power to change things so that they'll be happy, content, and satisfied. but then again, if i had that power, where would God fit in to the picture? *shakeshead* i don't know what to do any more. i think that from now on, i shouldn't give anyone any "advice" or tell them what i think/feel about the situation. it'd prolly be better for everyone if i did. eeesh, i can make such a mess of things. i will just continue to be the mute friend....hahahahaaha, ok, sorry, didn't mean to be funny at the moment. as i was saying, i'll just continue to be the sounding board and the huge shoulder...


went to FLAX today...oooo! i LUV that store! spent like 2 1/2 hours there. they're having a HUGE sale! up to 80% off till oct 12th! GO!


[trying to think like a 'guy' and just block it from my memory...one shot, didn't get it, so just walk away....trying, trying TRYING]