Dang, haven't posted in a really long time. So from most recent events?
Today
Memorial Service for Ria. Hard to believe it will be three years; three years without one of the best people in the world. Three years without the one person I could fully open up to and not feel intimidated by. Three years without the one person who knew me more than I ever let anyone. Three years without the one who lit up the room with just a smile. The pain is more dull, but it's still there. Today just brought it back up again. I don't know why I keep trying to convince myself that every year that we have a Memorial Service for her, I'll cry less - I don't. Watching the video with all the pictures of her was really hard. Hard to see her yet not hear her. Hard to think that alot of the pictures were from just a few years ago. Hard to imagine that there are still so many unanswered questions. Hard to imagine life without her. There was also a dove release after the "ceremony" and I was one of the honored ones who was chosen to release 1 of 20 doves. The guy who brought them said that alot of people ask him that when they get released, where do they go? He says they go "home" and not to worry about them. The rest of the week is going to be a tough one.
Saturday
Practice, Greg & Ty's baseball game and then the team BBQ. It was at one of their teammates home. WOW. Their house is awesome. On 1 acre of land, has a pool, separate area for hot tub, and an arcade room. Yup, equipped with pinball machine, flat screen tv mounted on the wall for xbox, and the arcade race car game for 2. Lotsa fun! Then to pick up Courtney in Walnut Creek, then to Grandma and Grandpa's in Oakland for dinner. Got to drive Auntie Tina's new X3. Nice ride...
Friday
Work, work, work. Then Christine and I went to the city. Ate at this really quaint French Bistro on Bay Street. YUUUUMMMMM! Then went to see this new jazz artist, Jamie Cullum, at Bimbo's. They say he's "grown up pop." Whatever. He was really amazing on the piano tho. So very much impressed. But I swear! These artist are getting younger and younger! He is a really good entertainer. Gets the crowd involved, energetic, all over the stage and the piano, funny, and my favorite part, he's got a British accent. ;) Hahhahaahha! We got there late, which was fine, since we didn't know who the opening act was. There were no more seats so we sat on the dance floor. But when Jamie came on, everyone stood, which wasn't too nice...seeing as I'm a short Asian girl. Had to manuever around quite a bit and keep people from pushing and shoving. Eeeeshhh, but at least it wasn't like a teenybopper concert. Thank God. Near the end of the set Christine went to go get us his cds which were only 10 bucks! When she came back, she said the guy gave her 2 posters and meet and greets. Cool! So after his encore, we hurried and left the dance floor and headed to the bar where we were supposed to line up. Then we heard him singing again. He was doing one last slow solo. Waited about 20 minutes for him to come out and when he did, he was surround by 4 really tall guys that just dwarfed him. He looked so short! Hahhahahaha! We were like 10th in line and they kept saying no pictures and only one at a time. So while someone's up getting an autograph, the next person has to stand behind a bouncer like 3 feet away. Had a nice brief lil chat with him and had him sign my cd instead of the booklet. There was a guy sitting next to him that was video taping everything. Then there was a woman standing just ahead with a huge 'ol light video taping as well. When I started to walk by her, she lowered the camera and she asked me what he signed. She had such a thick accent I thot she asked me what he SAID. She said, NO! What did he SIGN! "OH! Sorry! He signed my cd." Can I see it? Can you show it to me? "Sure, here..." Then she whips up her camera and takes my hand and cd. Okkkk.....didn't get home till 2, but a nice way to start the weekend.
Monday - Thursday
I don't really remember...prolly just work, work, work, work....
Saturday
THE Wedding. TOMANDA finally hitched. I completely forgot some stuff, but it didn't totally hinder things from happening. Just made things go a lil more slowly. I was so nervous, but Christie and everyone else had things under control. Started the wedding pretty much on time. Coordinators were wonderful to work with! I wish ALL coordinators could be as nice as them!! Banquet was...interesting. 4 tables had to be ON the dance floor so while cake was getting cut, 40 people had to move. Inconvienent, but had to be done. Couldn't dance at all because had to work out the bill. At one point, I walked out of the room Christie, Dave, and I were locked in [to count money] to talk to the manager and Chris tried to trick me into dancing. "Tell me what to do with those bags. [points across dance floor]" "What bags?" "Those two bags over there [pushed me closer to the dance floor]" "What are you talking about?!" "Over here [drags me closer] DUH! "Chris! I can't dance right now! I have to finish settling the bill!" Funny, funny. If he had just asked I would have told him yes but not at the moment. But as it was, I didn't get to dance at all. Which was a shame, seeing as I understand it, I missed some pretty unforgetable dancers. Loaded more stuff into the burb, then headed home ready to crash.
Sunday
Late to church...couldn't wake up in time. Then Christine and I went to Byron's house for a BBQ. He said 1. We got there around 1:30 and NO ONE was there. So we played pool, which we both haven't done in a REALLY long time. Let's just say we know why we haven't played in such a long time. Man were we pathetic. He made some really good bruschetta and chicken. Yumm. His friends finally showed up around 2:30 and they played pool....the right way. Hahhahahaa. Then the 3 of us sat around the kitchen table eating cherries and talking about, well, I guess life in general. It was nice to catch up since we really hadn't in a while. And again, I got told that I need to say NO more often. Then went to Christine's house for about 45 minutes. Then went to Alameda property for Jenn and Maria's grad party. Fun times, fun times. "Duck, duck, goose, anyone?" Hahahhahahaha....yeah, grad party. just another reminder of how pathetically slow I am in graduating. ::sigh::
This week
More work, more graduations/parties, get togethers then I can count and remember. Soooo tired. And on top of that, I decided that I need to empty out everything in my closet and throw everything away. So everythings on my bed or on the floor...so much for "neat."
Emotionally drained...headed to bed. Please no nitemares tonite....
