i was an hour late to my class this morning. i couldnt sleep last nite [i can't sleep right now and i know i should cuz i'll have a helluva time gettin up in the morning]. i think i finally slept around 4 or so. i had set my alarm clock for 7 but i guess i shut if off cuz i woke up at 9 - the time class starts. got to school at 10, asked mike if i missed much, to which i got what i expected - the roll of the eyes and a laugh. yeah right. us miss anything in that class? it's sucha joke. 3 hours of sitting in front of a computer doing nothing. altho, last thurs, it was quite benefitial to us. we searched art colleges, that was cool but depressing at the same time cuz we realized how poor we are and how we'd basically hafta be filthy rich, completely dedicated w/ no jobs to attend any of the good ones. today, we said we were going to take pictures of landscapes and buildings for our projects, but we actually went up to the gym cuz mike's logo for the basketball team was getting painted onto the floor. how cool is that? and it got put in the paper...FRONT PAGE! hung out watching them for 1/2 an hour and then went back to class for the last 1/2 hour doing nothing as usual....

something's wrong w/ me and this time, i refuse to go to the dr. well, ok, it's not that i refuse, it's just, i'd rather not go and hear the bad news. i'm pretty sure i know what i have...it's not exactly cureable...it's not even widely known. but doing a lil bit of reading about it has answered alot of questions about me. like why i'm in pain and moody sometimes. maybe this is why i can't sleep at nite too...*sigh* i know God has this planned for a reason for me, but i was really hoping that after the whole eye experience, i wouldn't have any more "scary" issues. oh please Lord, i dont know if i can take it...

i must've been crazy when i registered for classes last semester. eesh. but the drive to get out of ohlone is pushing me, so off to school i go. yesssss for all of you who are askin, "why the heck are you still there? aren't you supposed to be friggin DONE by now?!" let's just say, i'm a lazy butt. altho at this point, my parents have another choice word for my butt these days...i guess part of the reason why it's taken me so long is my lack of confidence. there's nothing i want to do more, however, i just don't think i can do it. *sigh* maybe i'm destined to be a slave at church and work at the office for the rest of my life. *shudder*shudder*

right about now, it's pouring in fremont. which is so weird considering when i got home at 10 tonite, it was pretty balmy. i wish i didn't have school tomorrow so i could sleep outside and watch all the lightning...ahhhh yes, my favorite. LIGHTNING STORMS. whooohoooo.

alrighty, i guess i should be going to bed, seeing as i can't wake up for the life of me in the morning. *sigh* peace out


dana, i'll miss you lots! magnetic fingers...no honking...bad drivers...getting away...change of pace...birds...star gazing...farts...photography i'll be prayin for ya girly