i was an hour late to my class this morning. i couldnt sleep last nite [i can't sleep right now and i know i should cuz i'll have a helluva time gettin up in the morning]. i think i finally slept around 4 or so. i had set my alarm clock for 7 but i guess i shut if off cuz i woke up at 9 - the time class starts. got to school at 10, asked mike if i missed much, to which i got what i expected - the roll of the eyes and a laugh. yeah right. us miss anything in that class? it's sucha joke. 3 hours of sitting in front of a computer doing nothing. altho, last thurs, it was quite benefitial to us. we searched art colleges, that was cool but depressing at the same time cuz we realized how poor we are and how we'd basically hafta be filthy rich, completely dedicated w/ no jobs to attend any of the good ones. today, we said we were going to take pictures of landscapes and buildings for our projects, but we actually went up to the gym cuz mike's logo for the basketball team was getting painted onto the floor. how cool is that? and it got put in the paper...FRONT PAGE! hung out watching them for 1/2 an hour and then went back to class for the last 1/2 hour doing nothing as usual....

something's wrong w/ me and this time, i refuse to go to the dr. well, ok, it's not that i refuse, it's just, i'd rather not go and hear the bad news. i'm pretty sure i know what i have...it's not exactly cureable...it's not even widely known. but doing a lil bit of reading about it has answered alot of questions about me. like why i'm in pain and moody sometimes. maybe this is why i can't sleep at nite too...*sigh* i know God has this planned for a reason for me, but i was really hoping that after the whole eye experience, i wouldn't have any more "scary" issues. oh please Lord, i dont know if i can take it...