*yawn* it's been an exhausting weekend...and it's just the begining. rather draining, actually. funerals always are and i hate going to them...*sigh* i almost was in a huge car accident too. for the funeral procession, this lady decides to cut across the lanes and almost t-bones me. i was driving the burb with five other people in it. she saw me coming and i guessed she misjudged the distance and my speed cuz right as i got to her, she decided to cut across the 2 lanes from her driveway onto my side of the road. i did the whole swerve, jerk the wheel one way and bring it back. fortunately, my good driving skills kicked in and it wasn't as bad as i thot it was. everyone was pretty impressed...including me. i thot for sure i was in for it. she was driving a Tahoe and if i hadn't swerved, she would have hit me directly. good thing there wasn't anyone next to me either. the cop escort that was behind me zoomed up next to her and told her to slow down, but she was oblivious. stupid drivers.

went to the legion of honor today for my art history field trip. it's so much better to have your professor as your tour guide. it's much more fun and he makes it seem much more interesting. plus, he knows what we went over, what we know, etc. and you don't hafta hear stuff you don't wanna discuss. so yeah, it was cool. i wanna go back. i couldn't stay that long cuz i had a baby party to go to afterwards. but my aunt took me to this really cool art store in the city. it's called Flax. it's huge! they have soooo much stuff, i could spend hours there. but since i had to go, i think i only spent 20 something minutes there. new art store for me to spend all my money at...eesh

Dear Lord,
i thank you for the president we have today. it's so comforting to know that he goes to you in prayer, seeks your will and guidance. i pray that you'll continue to give him strength, wisdom, and intelligence to help protect our nation. i pray for our troops who are so willing to go and fight for our freedom, who want to protect us from an harmful things or beings. i pray that you'll protect them, give them wisdom, strength, guidance, and clear states of mind. thank you for their diligence and loyalty to America. i pray for christina. i don't know exactly where she's at, what she's doing, but i know she's in your care, Lord. i'm worried and a bit frightened about what could happen to her. please help me to remember to rely on you and know that all things will work out for your plan. please help me to just give her up to you Lord. i pray for all the ppl in our country. Lord, there are so many who are against bush, america, and what it originally was meant to stand for. i pray that we will stop fighting the petty battles and wars within our nation and stand united in wanting to rid the world of terrorists and other hateful incidents. thank you for hearing all of our prayers; none of which are too small or irrelevant to you. i committ everything to you, in Your Name i pray, AMEN

so the war has officially started. i do have mixed feelings about it, but, i'm glad SOMETHING is finally being done. i actually had a discussion about the war with someone today. they said that they thot bush shouldn't be going into bomb iraq cuz it "isn't his country." while i agree that it isn't his country, i stated that we're only defending our country. we were harmed in a way that no country should be harmed and by going to war, we're preventing any further occurences. how can you justify letting a psycho, madman who intentionally kills, rapes, and harms his own ppl, go? the person i was talking with, they thot that we should just leave them alone. and i brot up, well, if we just let sept. 11th go, don't do anything to find out who planned it and who helped plan it, we're just inviting something else to occur. i mean, sadaam has already said that he hates america and he purposefully built weapons of mass destruction for us. so we should just sit back and let him bomb us and destroy us? i don't think so. yeah, i hate war, i don't think things should have to lead to war, but when negotiations, inspections, and warnings don't get us anywhere, what are you going to do? just leave it alone and hope it disappears? i think not. so yes, i'm passionate about war. and no, don't think i don't worry about our troops, cuz i am. i'm worrying more than you prolly are cuz my family is out there. it sux not knowing where she is. it sux not knowing if she's actually in port in japan or actually out on the ocean protecting an air craft carrier. it sux knowing that if anything were aimed at that air craft carrier, HER ship has to intercept and take the hit instead. so don't think i don't care about the troops, i do. but something has to be done. sadaam should've been dead long time ago. if it were taken care of when the chance was presented, we wouldn't be in this situation.

exhausted is the only word in my vocabulary at the moment. good gracious. isn't spring break supposed to be relaxing and enjoyable? rush, rush, rush. i've given up on my oil painting and so i think i'll fail. hahahahaha. i was over at the hsiao's house saturday nite and they had some of ria's artwork around the house. i wish i had talent like her. she was so gifted, it's amazing. i miss hearing her talk about her latest paintings and projects and about all the "interesting" ppl she met on the way to school and at school. i miss hearing her laugh and scream MICHHHYYYY!!! everytime she saw me. i miss her bright smile and her bubbly attitude. i miss her advice and insight to life. i miss talking to her on the phone into the early hours of the morning. i miss the long emails and letters we used to exchange. i miss having her over to watch mtv and cook spaghetti with. i miss talking about the different designs we dreamed about for our tattoos. i miss talking about the cutie guys we'd see at the mall. i miss ranting about our sucky, hard to please art teachers. i just MISS RIA. time doesn't stop the wound of pain from bleeding, but lessens it so you can at least get through the day.