"It was a beautiful let down when i crashed and burned..." -switchfoot

So I guess I'm crashing and burning again. I have to have laser surgery on my left eye again. Another hole has turned up and while it's not causing the damage that I've had before, it's still somewhat of a problem. So tomorrow morning at 9am, I'm going under the beam. It's going to be a really short procedure and supposed to be painless. But well, I just don't know. The first time I had it done on my right eye, it didn't hurt. When I had it done on my left eye, it hurt so badly I couldn't say anything, I was just shaking and tears where just pouring down. I'm not sure what to expect. I'm not sure if I'm scared yet. I am, but I'm not, so thus the confusion. I am thankful that it's just laser and I don't have to have another operation and be flat on my back again, but at the same time, I'm worried about it. I went to Joyfest on Saturday and Peter from newsboys said something that's been replaying in my head. "Don't think about yesterday, because it's gone. Don't think about today, because, well, it's almost over. And don't think about tomorrow, because God's already there. Don't you know that He has everything already planned out?" I know this to be the truth, I know this and believe this with my whole heart. And I know that I shouldn't be worrying about the tomorrows to come, but at the same time, I am. It's been 3 years since the initial ordeal and I've been healing fine and for this to creep back up, it is somewhat daunting. I keep telling myself not to worry about tomorrow, I keep telling myself there's no reason to feel down or to feel like you should cry - besides, what's the point in crying? It's not going to change anything, but I keep putting myself in check. It's just going to be a simple, easy-peasy procedure tomorrow that will take less than 5 minutes to perform. After which I can rest for a few hours and still be able to go to school. Note to self: keep telling yourself that.

So yes, this past weekend. Had a foundation meeting at the Hsiao's after H2O. Then had a CSI marathon. Well, not really. Thot we would be able to watch all of season one, we barely made it thru the 1st DVD! Went to practice in the morning, then picked up Ange and headed to Great America for Joyfest. 4 bands, 5 hours of rocking out. Casting Pearls, Skillet, Relient K, and Newsboys. Ahhhhhhh, even the weather couldn't hamper the festivites. We didn't get too wet. It was pretty awesome, it rained only inbetween the sets. It was an awesome time of worship. Then to Auntie Lucy's house, b/c I housesat for them.

Sunday, church, lunch w/ Auntie Bobbie, grandparents, family, Auntie Terri, and lil Gracie Lou. Then to Sacto for Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman and Chris Tomlin. Went w/ Mere, Hil, Steve, Sylvia, Mark, Mark's co-worker Ken and his wife [whom I can't remember her name] and Ken's brother, Steve. Great concert.

At first, I was thinking, "Man, overload on the concerts this weekend." But they just helped prepare me for today and tomorrow. So, I'm off to bed and hopefully I'll be able to have a peaceful sleep before the event of the day takes place. ::sigh::

Do not be afraid for I am with you says the Lord. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.