*correction, cal is now 7 - 0! =D

ever wish, hope, and dream for something and then realize that it's not going to be and have everything come crashing down on you? you hold something so close and think positively about the outcomes and then reality sets in. *sigh* makes you just want to give up and not do anything ever again. i DON'T want to feel that way, but i do, unfortunately. hmmmm....maybe i SHOULD spend more than a few weeks in florence. maybe this is my chance to get away and start everything over again. *sigh*

how do you know when your friends are your REAL friends? i'm still trying to figure that out. if you're there for them thru all the good and bad times and support them in whatever they're in, but then they don't do the same for you, that's not right, right? so why is it then that sometimes THEY get offended when you don't keep in contact with them? don't you have every reason to believe that there's no point in going to them for THEIR support? what's the point? hmmm...still pondering that one and wondering how i'm the bad guy.